Feeling like a kid......it's no sin.

Listening to: You were meant for me~ Jewel

It isn't a good day. You know, one of those days which feels like it is just ordinary and doesn't matter. One of those days which you won't remember even if you tried. (Well, unless I read this entry next time).

It's almost a year since I started working at this place I'm working. Think it's time to give it a name. I shall call it Algaepond. Yes, it's almost a year since I started working at Algaepond. I find myself unable to escape from the colour green.

So far I find the colleagues fine, the work sucky at times and I find myself growing old. Even though I'm one of the youngest in my workplace and act my age or younger most of the time. It's like I feel guilt being my childlike self and consciously try to turn myself into a prim and proper working adult. Besides, having that childlike close to childish touch doesn't exactly make people believe you are capable of handling responsibilities. So I keep on a poker face at work and only turn into some "thing" else at lunch or during some moments when bosses' heads are turned.

Ok, I am fine feeling the way I feel right now but seriously I feel quite scared that I will still feel and act like some stupid kid 50 years down the road. I wonder how people can age and act their age (without experiencing major ups and downs). I don't think I can. At most I can pretend.