Time after time

Currently listening to: Time after time ~ Eva Cassidy

So I found another Eva Cassidy song that I love. However, it sounds hauntingly sad. I can shed tears from listening to it.

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I think I'm reaching breakpoint. I snap at people at work. I don't think I want to talk about work further so I'll stop here.

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For a moment, I thought this was for real. Then I saw Joel and Clementine's photos in there and I realised that it is from "Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind". So it isn't real.

Some people and some memories; it doesn't mean that I stop talking about them that they are no longer existent. I just pretend that they are no longer in this world because they're no longer in my life. Life goes on. I continue leading my life, you continue leading yours. Only that we wouldn't allow our paths to cross again.

I threw away a lot of things this new year but I couldn't throw away what I have of you. I'm still searching for that bookmark. In the past, when I was in a self-torturing mood, I look through these physical memories. These days, I never take them out anymore. Maybe I finally realised I was being stupid. You moved on. What about me? I think it's impossible for me to forget you. I tried but I guess my memories of you are always camouflaged somewhere in my mind just waiting to pounce on me when I least expect it.

I no longer bear any hope of us being friends like we were years ago. I don't even want to meet you again because I know I wouldn't be able to take it. But I guess I will still miss you like I do at this moment. Time after time.

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Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Turning in circles confusion
Is nothing new
Flashback to warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories,
Time after...

Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you have said
And you say go slow
I've fallen behind
The second hand unwinds

Chorus:
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time

After your picture fades and darkness has
Turned to grey
Watching through windows I�m wondering
If you�re OK
And you say go slow
I've fallen behind
The drum beats out of time

Chorus:
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time

mmm�time after time
Oooh�time after time
Time after time

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Maybe I'll turn this entry private tomorrow. Mood too morose now. (Maybe I'll regret posting this. bleah.)...