My world.

The rain has stopped. I should be in bed now. Staying up gives me the false idea that the weekend is longer.

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I survived last week with minimal damage. Four bumps on my face (those painful pimple-like things which do not look like pimples). Must. put. mask.

Didn't lose my temper at my staff but I did lose my cool when talking to another colleague. I was just too angry about how things weren't communicated properly and time was wasted.

I hate being wedged in between and becoming the scapegoat when things happen. I will say the truth and I don't care if the truth hurts.

I'm tired but I will fight if I have to. You'll be surprised when I do.

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I watched the first eight episodes of Smallville Season 2 on dvd. Season Four pales in comparison with Season 1 and what I have watched for Season 2 so far. I want to watch Season 5!

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It's 23 October 2005. I wish next week passes soon. I want holidays! I want November to come soon so I can watch Rent! and hopefully Oi Sleeping Beauty! Au is going to Bangkok with Viv so I am no longer sure if we're still going for sleeping beauty.

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I feel like taking more pictures. Go on an urban hike or something. Maybe some time next week.

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Movies? I bought five GV tickets when the girls ordered in bulk. No. No "April Snow".

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I have been spending too much on food. And where did the food go to?

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My shoe strap broke at around eleven plus on Wednesday night when mousetan and I were running across the road to Tanjong Pagar MRT. It flew, mousetan grabbed it when it landed and I limped all the way home. The shoe was one month old. Coincidentally, another shoe also had the same problem. Both from the same shoe shop called u.r.s. Either there's some problem with the shoe or I'm too rough.

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Colleague from work lamented that I'm not like a woman when I didn't check my bill during lunch time. Are women supposed to look at bills more carefully? It's not a gender thing, isn't it?

In his exact words in Mandarin, "Ni bu shi nu ren". I take it as a compliment.

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Like what happened between him and me. We stopped talking for a reason. His reason.

You stopped talking to me. What's your reason?

Maybe like him, you wouldn't even care to explain.

Maybe it's me.

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I'm thinking of taking up piano/guitar classes when things are more stable.

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Life's in limbo but I'm all right.

Mondays are GREAT!

Monday. I had a rather long day today but all's well. I've showered, had a cup of hot milo and going off to sleep soon. Here's to another day of work. *raises my emptied cup* Hope it won't end as late as today.

Some random things that happened today:

1) Talked to this old uncle when his call was escalated to me. After talking about work related matters for about three minutes, he started talking about me furthering my studies. He also told me not to settle for just any guy. Should find someone older by 6-10 years so that he is financially more stable and can provide for me. And to take up a course in finance/marketing. Quite an interesting and at times, hilarious conversation (he asked me how young I am and he called me a baby after I said I was turning 24 this year) but I think he was speaking from experience and most of it felt quite genuine and heartfelt.

2) Ate at Sakae Sushi for the second time in 3 days. I think I'm going to stay away from that stall for the rest of this week.

3) Realised that ants are crawling on my desk. I think they drop down from the ceiling. EEKs.

4) Saw Bert from my upper sec class in the MRT when going home. He is finishing his fourth year at NAFA and he looked rather happy and relaxed. If I'm not wrong, he dropped out of NTU to study music.

7 things....

7 things that scare me

Losing my senses.
Losing my family.
Losing my friends.
Dying young.
Insects.
Horror shows.
Having to make presentations to important people.

7 things I like most

Sleeping in.
Receiving snail mail from friends.
Listening to music.
Watching good movies.
Reading good books.
Long walks.
Taking pictures.

7 random facts about me

I don't think my weight has reached 40 kg.
I like potato chips.
I have never grown my hair as long as it is presently.
I used to cry very easily but not now.
I have high expectations of people who are important to me.
When I'm outside, I try not to walk faster than people who have problems walking.
In the midst of a conversation, a straw I'm using can go up my nostril when I try to put the straw in my mouth.


7 things I want to do before I die

Speak fluent Japanese.
Speak my own dialect.
Swim very well.
Play an instrument. Either the piano or the guitar.
Cook well enough for myself and family.
Fall in love.
Travel to at least 10 countries.

7 things I can do

Snort when I laugh.
Sing ktv till 5 a.m. in the morning with friends.
Keep secrets.
Watch news and then imagine bad things happening just like in the news and scare myself.
Play with cats and hold them by their skin behind their heads (how to say it?)
Recover from anger easily and flare up easily.
Make a fool of myself often.

7 things I can’t do

All those tricks like moving your ears and folding your tongue etc.
Drive.
Sleep very early.
Talk a lot.
Be pally pally with people I dislike.
Tell lies.
Act.

7 things I say the most

What what?
Why?
Izzzit?
Yes?
Wah!
Oohh!
ok...

In her eyes, he was perfect.

It was a rough day. I wonder how I'm going to get through the next week.

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Surfed on to this website.

My eyes watered and my throat felt tight after reading this. Then I went on to think about what I heard on the radio tonight. It was on turning back time. How many times have we thought of turning back time so as to relive certain moments in our lives, to do things right and to experience the happiness all over again?

If you had the ability to go back in time, would you still find your memories as precious?

So clean.

I finally got down to packing my stuff!

The clock never seemed so alive

Today (monday) is going to be a very busy day.

I will be on course at HDB Hub on Tuesday and Wednesday.

I'll be back to the office on Thursday, Friday and Saturday.

Yet another wedding dinner on Sunday.

Half day off next Monday.

And the cycle continues....

Story behind peachgarden.blogspot.com

So we decided to have a new blog. The three of us, who started sharing our lives with one another in LiveJournal.

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Conversation with SF. Reason as to why it's called peachgarden.

10/9/2005 7:29:22 PM me: blog add?
10/9/2005 7:30:17 PM Him: peachgarden
10/9/2005 7:30:26 PM me: wah. the restaurant ah. LOL.
10/9/2005 7:30:38 PM Him: no it's not a restaurant
10/9/2005 7:30:42 PM me: how about souprestaurant
10/9/2005 7:30:50 PM me: then what is it?
10/9/2005 7:31:04 PM Him: it's a symbol
10/9/2005 7:31:15 PM me: what symbol?
10/9/2005 7:33:58 PM Him: liu bei, guan yu and zhang fei swore brotherhood in a peach garden -桃園三節義
10/9/2005 7:34:08 PM me: hahaha.. ALL right.
10/9/2005 7:37:05 PM me: http://peachgarden.blogspot.com/

The third day of October.

On Sunday, I was dreading to go to work on Monday but Monday turned out to be a rather productive (and happy) day. Mousetan and I knocked off at around nine and we had dinner at Bugis. Even though I feel a little tired now, I know that at least I won't dread going to work tomorrow. I think I'm finally gaining some momentum (or more immunity) such that I'm actually feeling like I'm coping better these two weeks. It's been quite a long time since I felt I was coping. I think it was since January when I started struggling with having more responsibilities.

Am a little happier but I won't delude myself and say that I love work.

Work is still horrible.

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I haven't been doing much outside work. I have forgone my Aussie trip because of the project at work and have been just reading, using the computer, eating, sleeping and doing laundry. I hardly go out. When I go out, it's mostly because I have to go out. Rarely because I really want to.

I think I now understand what DH meant when he talked about wanting to go out yet being choosy with company.

So much for being enthusiastic.

Just a random memory that came to mind.

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Teacher: "Now, turn to page X of your workbook and take out your colour pencils."

Sound of ruffling pages

e-y at age 5 sees two outlines of figures, one of a boy and one of a girl (like those on toilet doors).

Teacher says something about colouring blue for boys and red for girls.

e-y doesn't listen properly and eagerly uses blue to fill in the outline of the boy and red to fill in the outline of the girl.

Teacher walked by as e-y was finishing. Teacher said loudly: "Why did you colour both? You should just colour the girl."

It's the first day of October. Weather's beautiful. Wish I am out at this time with a friend, walking around somewhere quiet. We don't even have to talk. Just enjoy the scenery and feel at peace.

But well, I'm not. My throat still feels a bit like it's got sandpaper rubbing against it.

Have to settle for spending the rest of the evening at home. It's yet another routine weekend spent at home doing laundry and whiling my time away on a book and at the computer.

Write later.