The porridge pot.

It was a busy day at work. Since we implemented the verification process and absorbed the workload instead of distributing it amongst the eight sups, the four sups on my floor have been verifying transactions day in, day out. The in-tray's never empty (always full!!). I got quite tired of the pile and when Ros came by for yet another verification, we had this conversation. Very spontaneous one:

Me: "You remember the ladybird books we used to read when young?"
Ros: Looked a bit lost.
Me: "Uhm, those little storybooks with the hardcovers."
Ros: "Ah, yes. Why?"
Me: "This in-tray reminds me of a story. You know, the one with the porridge?"
Ros: Looked lost again. "Porridge?"
Me: "Yea, the one with the porridge pot. No matter how much you ate, the pot was always full. This tray is like that. No matter how much I do, it's still as full. And it's going to overflow."

We looked at each other and burst into laughter. I think she never expected such crap from me, hahaha. Well, neither did I.

Anyways, TGIAF. A few more hours to go. Tomorrow, I'm pigging out with the withdrawal sups at amara. Hopefully the day passes peacefully.

It's rather hazy right now in this side of the island. With the haze, the sky's looking orange. When I was younger, I always thought the night sky would turn orange when it was about to rain. As I got older, I realised it was the street lights from which the cloudy night sky got its colour.

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It's a rather nice Wednesday I had today. I packed my room while listening to the radio. Then when Sis and Goz came, we had a good time watching the Grey's Anatomy Season 2 DVD while snacking. Today we watched seven episodes.

Scenes that were memorable/super funny:

1) Where they had to sacrifice Bonnie to save Tom (the two strangers who got pierced by a pole in the trainwreck episode). McDreamy had to tell Bonnie's fiance her last words. "If love were enough, she'd still be here with you." McDreamy then broke down in the elevator while Bailey pulled the alarm button to stop it from moving.

2) The realization that Cristina was holding a left leg in the operating room when they were waiting to re-attach a right leg.

3) The gondola-under-the-bridge-of-sighs old couple who didn't want each other to find out that the wife had liver cancer and had only four to six months to live. They were really sweet.

4) Cristina crying uncontrollably and Burke comforting her, with Cristina's funny mother in the room

5) The operation in the elevator scene. George flying solo. Wowie!

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I don't feel like going back to work tomorrow. I'm tired.

The recent changes at work are taking a toll on everyone but from what I see, everyone's trying really hard. I smile sometimes when I see staff from different teams learning, joking and cooperating with one another on work-related stuff. This is what I wanted to see when we first discussed the idea of having all staff do everything, instead of specialising.

We're a good team. Even though sometimes quarrels and misunderstandings are unevitable, we don't dwell on the unhappiness for too long. We're more than just colleagues. That's what's keeping me here after close to three years. That's what's keeping some of them here for more than three years. If not for the friendships, I'd be somewhere else by now. It's a love-hate relationship, this job I have.

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September's almost over and I haven't got the impulse to do anything yet.

I think I'm almost over you.

Lung words.

Dentist review today. I prefer Dr C to this dentist I saw today. The dentist I saw today made me feel uncomfy with his fake smiles. Bleah. I wonder why Dr C took leave for more than 2 months.

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On the bus home, the guy beside me kept shifting his bum around. I think he silently farted every one minute. I was so glad to alight.

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Yesterday as Hrin and I talked a bit about SG Idol, I realised that Dreamz FM is the Meng4 Fei1 Chuan2 I used to like a lot! LOL. I never knew they sang an English song -"Should I stay". Too bad they disbanded.

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I have one day off tomorrow and I plan to spend it watching my Grey's Anatomy Season 2! It arrived in Singapore on Friday actually but the courier failed to get my mom to answer the door. SingPost tried to redeliver it on Saturday but failed again. So I went to the post office to get my package yesterday evening. So excited! My first buy from Amazon.com. Hehe.

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Some of the girls took time off today to buy their DND dresses. I think I'll do that soon since DND isn't that far away. This year's theme is Be My Guest. We're supposed to go dressed in some costume (from fairytales - think fairies, elves, pumpkin head, witch with broom etc. hahaa, just kidding). I think I'll just get some nice dress and get some props to be a fairy. I wonder if my fringe can be styled. Too short now.

Today, I played mommy for a few minutes.

Two postings on the same day.

I thought I'd better note this down before I forget how it felt.

Today I carried a less than a month old baby in my arms. Colleague's hubby asked if Auntie Miffy Rabbit wanted to try carrying her and I hesitated for a few seconds before she was handed over to me. I haven't carried any baby in such a long time (think the last time was when I carried this little boy my nanny looked after. I was just a kid then).

So she was in my arms and slept soundly. For a moment, I felt so blessed. A little girl in the arms of a 24 year old auntie miffy. LOL. Wish I had a picture taken of us. She opened her eyes a couple of times due to the attention she got and almost cried. My heart went thump, thump, thump as I carried her (partly because I was afraid she would cry and partly because I thought I would make her uncomfy). Everytime she seemed like she would cry, I behaved like a rocking chair and rocked her to sleep. The little sweetheart slept and soon, her parents brought her home. But the sweetness lingered. Little kiddos. hehehe.

So Hady won...

I just got an sms from D.

Her: Don't be sad by the results okie. =)
My reply: LOL. I'm okay lah! Not a little girl anymore man!

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So I got my sister to not vote for both contestants. And I did all the voting! No prizes for guessing who I voted for. Hehe.

Vocally, Hady's the stronger one but we all know that Jonathan's got the X factor. So to all the disappointed supporters out there, it's not the end. Ken's right in saying it's just the start of a new journey for Jonathan.

One night to be disappointed and then greater days ahead!

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Should I Stay

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you'd been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel's heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin' proof of what love is about

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Even though I am down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You're still in my thoughts

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh should I stay?
Should I go?

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should go?

This time its done
It'll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it's sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn't matter somehow
But you were livin' proof of what love is about...

On a high

I'm actually rather tired now because of last night (met up with Hrin and gang). Reached home at three plus in the morning and as I waited for my hair to dry, I came across this posting in the sg idol forums. A forummer was giving away extra tickets. I tried my luck and as I was still in dreamland this morning, she emailed me twice, the latter email at 7 a.m. stating she had given away the tickets as I had not responded.

At 4 p.m., when I read the email, I felt disappointed (I had little reason to be actually, considering how little effort I had put into getting tickets and having not woken up early to check my mail). Well, I thanked her anyway via sms and she called. "I have an extra ticket, do you want it?" Of course I said yes!

The crowd was amazing. Signboards, posters, clappers, screams. Woah. Due to the last minute going, I hadn't charged my camera battery and couldn't take any pictures. I think I'm actually having a threshold shift due to the outing last night and today's performance at the indoor stadium. I think my eyes are open only because I'm still on this high.

Hopefully Jonathan wins. =)

My heart feels heavy tonight and I don't know why.

Shelter.

what's wrong
what's getting you down
was it something I might have said
you're walking around with your head to the ground
and your eyes a watery bed (?)

I know you've been through tough times
kicked around, thrown to the ground
but you've always been the strong one
so tell me that nobody gets you

who's that standing in your corner
knocking at your door
don't have to be a lie (?)

just call my name
let me be an answer
'cos it hurts me to be seeing you this way
i wanna ease your pain
help me understand
let me be your shelter, my friend