First time - Lifehouse

We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as a sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Whenever I'm alone with you tonight
Like being in love with you for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as a sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Whenever I'm alone with you tonight
Like being in love with you for the first time

We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as a sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Whenever I'm alone with you tonight
Like being in love with you for the first time

Like being in love she said for the first time
Like being in love with you the first time

Harry Potter (don't read if you don't want to see spoilers)

Although I'd watched a few of the Harry Potter movies, I never really understood why the books are so popular. As my colleague, Sab, started reading the books recently, I asked if I could borrow and then, most of these past two weekends have been spent reading them. Haven't finished the books on hand but it's been enjoyable so far. I'm sure I'll enjoy the Goblet of Fire because I liked the last movie. The fifth.. was a bit long and I watched it with a heavy heart..

So it was 21st July yesterday. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows was released worldwide and I didn't preorder. Sab smsed me yesterday afternoon on the ending and I checked out the summary online. Although I'm rather happy that Rowling didn't kill the kids, (I thought that she'd kill Ron or something), I'm a bit sad that Snape died. He's one of my favourite characters because of the ambiguity -- why did he kill Dumbledore? why did he dislike Harry so much but still protected him? was he really loyal towards Voldemort/Dumbledore? ..?

Then I read that towards the end of the book, he'd extracted part of his memories for Harry and we got to know that he had loved his mother, Lily, from a long, long time ago. That's why the fact that "Harry's got his mother's eyes" is so important.

Sigh, anyway, I don't think I've been so into such storybooks since a long time ago. =P

p.s. the actor who plays Snape is Alan Rickman, who was in Love Actually! Looks so different, man!

Work has been bearable. I've been rather productive but feeling rather lethargic. Probably because I stopped running since a few weeks back. I'm trying to work out a schedule where I can reach home at about 7 plus, eat dinner, watch some tv, practise piano and violin for about 1 1/2 hours, also make time for a run and then have some time to cool down and then bathe. But it doesn't seem to be workable? I can run only after about 2 hours after dinner and I usually don't get to eat dinner until about 8 p.m. or so. Anyway, I'll see how it goes. Actually I've been feeling rather tired but I'm happy I go to bed each night knowing that I did etc. etc. etc. in the day.

Yawn. I'm really quite tired and should really be bathing soon.

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The recent talk about raising the retirement age to 65 - I don't think it's feasible and I hope it doesn't get passed. I was on the bus this morning and this thought came to mind - it's like pulling the finishing line further and further away when the marathoner is about to reach it. Then he passes out.

It's rather sad if you think about how you've waited much of your life to withdraw a measly payout during retirement age. And then they go and raise the retirement age further and you have no choice but to wait. Either you die before you get the payout or your savings go to your beneficiaries.

Anyway, a colleague passed away at the age of 57 yesterday. Sigh.

From-- The Holiday

Iris: I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.

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I watched two DVDs today. One was "The Holiday" which had arrived in the mail in May but I never found time to watch. By the way, the soundtrack has become one of my favourites. =). The other is "The Art of Violin" which my teacher lent me.

It's my third lesson today and he'll be going to Germany for the month of July. While practising at home, I realised the assignment he gave me is tough. I wonder why he didn't make me try it during the lesson?

Well, I did try for about half an hour and finally saw a tiny bit of improvement.

I've been taking baby steps but I'm happy. =)