Today, I was supposed to go down to school to help out with the fair. Last-minute change of plans rendered me useless so I didn't need to go down to school anymore. Called off the dinner appointment I had with TG late in the afternoon. MS asked if I was going to the meeting TG was going to. I wasn't.

He said that it was good since I will have more time for myself. I replied that it made no difference since I already have a lot of time on my hands. There, I ended the smses with a smiley and here I am two hours later, typing away at my keyboard.

Two months ago, some of us from the camp crew were still meeting up to play sports every week. We had been playing badminton since the start of the year and the numbers have dwindled to less than ten. To be exact, it became just five of us. I remember the last badminton session we had at Tanglin CC. Five of us ended up pigging out at a nearby centre and then we had ice-cream at Macdonalds. Then there was the last squash session we had in school. Down to four people. Ended up pigging out again at Geylang (the yummy beef hor fun and the tow hway) and then checking out the meat market.

Then it became just the three of us. TG, MS and I. We didn't play any more sports except for once when we went cycling. Anyway, we always ended up pigging out together so there was no point. From then on, it was just food, arcade games and movies. We had grand plans like visiting one jazz place every week, going to Marina to fly kites and checking out the babes at Changi Village. Those fell through as MS went back to school. TG will also be busy with school and eca as the new semester commences. Well, it's starting to show; we haven't been able to catch "Charlie's Angels" or "City of God" even though we have tried to organise a movie outing numerous times. The last time we tried, we ended up just eating cake at Coffee Express because the timing was bad. Time is really against us.

As we grow up, we suddenly become busier people.
"No, I can't make it this Saturday evening. I have a dinner appointment." Or
"Sunday? I've got to go to church and then finish my projects." Or
"Nah, this week I can't make it. Have hall meetings." Or
"Err, need to keep my girlfriend/boyfriend/family company. Been neglecting her/him/them." Or
"Very tired lah. Need to catch up on sleep. Sorry, go out another time?"

And the list goes on.

As we become busier, we prioritize. As we prioritize, we relegate some people. As we relegate some people, they inevitably disappear from our lives. More often than not, I'm one of those relegated and it's pretty sad. Maybe it's retribution.

I miss being busy. Ah, how we contradict ourselves sometimes.