Not a girl, not yet a woman.

It's been my second day at work and I haven't really settled down. From the look of things, I foresee that it would be a long, hard journey ahead. Don't wish to think too much but I hope that I will have the strength to carry it through. Who said being a servant is easy? Depending on which household you belong to, it can be difficult.

I realise that I have to supervise fellow servants. Although that will come into place later on, I feel inadequate at the moment. I'm but a kid myself. Some of them are so much older than me and so much more experienced. I feel like a kid masquerading in adult clothes and wearing war paint and high heels to work everyday. Hope I'll get used to it. It doesn't help that my direct boss has high expectations of me. I badly want to learn everything as soon as possible but that's just not going to happen because there are just too many things to master. I don't want to make a fool of myself. I want to perform well and be able to contribute to my team.

Working means having to wake up and sleep early. I'm still getting used to it. My sore throat isn't gone but it's getting better. I'm leading a much healthier lifestyle (even if it's been only two days). Hope that I'll be healthier in the years to come.

In short, I'm still quite confused. Afraid. Hopeful. Wish me luck.