Hope I won't be updating this blog just once a week. For the last week, I really felt burnt out and didn't even log sometimes. Perhaps I am only starting to realise that I do not have the stamina to work long hours and stay up at night. So I have started to sleep earlier at around 10 plus to 11 (breaking the rule tonight) and I find that I can function better in the day.

I'm starting to feel stressed at work. Many times, I have to tell myself to cool it and focus on things one at a time. Besides, I'm also starting to feel that it's tough working as a servant. We're under public scrutiny all the time and even when we do try our best, people aren't satisfied. It feels like I'm back to those days in council where many people didn't understand and only knew how to criticize. I had forgotten about how it felt until now. Those who only know how to pinpoint and give stupid suggestions should just keep quiet unless they have something constructive to contribute.

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The play was quite okay. At some points, it was actually good. Interesting that they used the various slides as backgrounds. The ground with boxes. The piano - I was thinking what damage was done to it as so they sat on it.
The play was hilarious and touching at the same time. Selfless love was a theme which revolved around many of the subplots. However, I didn't really like all the stereotypes and all the hugging. Made me feel that it was because the actors weren't comfortable with kissing that's why they hugged. It looked funny. Don't ask me why but I just felt that way at that point in time. Some parts of it were rather draggy too. Or perhaps, I don't really know a lot about gays so I can't really judge if it really portrayed their lives well. Or perhaps, I was just too tired to really think properly. It was quite a nightmare reaching there on the dot just in time to sit in the last row and after having to rush to the Esplanade after swallowing dinner after the rehearsal. Was sorry having to make my cousin wait for me. After the play, we went to the taxi stand to wait and ended up calling for a cab.

Other than that, it was just work and work. V day was a no event as I just went home to watch tv and ended up falling asleep at 8 plus. Sometimes, I feel that we're all growing further apart. I don't mean that it's anyone's fault. Or it could be mine, maybe something's wrong with me. I'm starting to feel that I'm so alone. I realise that when I feel alone, it is always the worst time to find anyone because that's the time when I will find no one. On V day, I wanted to have dinner out but the only people I could think of were out, sick or tired. I went home to my mom.

That's me. That's life for now.

This entry is so down so I have to end it with something optimistic. It will be a better week ahead for you and me!