It's rather late and I should be getting to bed. Nevertheless, I'll just complete this entry and go to bed. Tomorrow is a busy day but I'm sure I will get through it fine.

The presentation today was not up to my expectations. I was a bundle of nerves because I felt unprepared. When I finally finished it, I was really relieved. I have another one next week. Hope that one will be better.

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I ran a little less today. Headed back towards the buildings earlier than last week. KK said that my pace was faster. Hope I can run more without stopping next week.

Messages

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To Dan,
Hope you do better in the rest of the exams. Although the GPA's a bit off, you still have time to improve it. Hols are here soon so enjoy them.

The album's out in April! I'll send it to you I promise. =)

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To WW,
Don't be that disheartened. Is it a S/U module or a graded one? There's always the finals to work hard for so don't give up at this point.

Your birthday's here soon. How would you like to celebrate it? We can work something out.

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To PL,
We should go out soon! I haven't finished reading "The God of Small Things".

I want to watch quite a lot of movies when they're out, like "In Good Company" and "Sin City" and "A lot like Love". Yah, I'm into stupid romantic comedies lately. Brainless stuff.

Hope you finish your thesis soon. Hahaha.

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To CJWD,
Thanks for arranging the KL trip. We will enjoy it! I'll do the currency change tomorrow.

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To II,
Thanks for the lovely present (chocs, picture book and key chain). I really didn't expect it.

However, I really think I'm not as good as what you make me out to be. When reading it, I was going "Oh my, oh my".

Seriously.

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To: Z

Hope you make some headway tonight for the crappy projects. Things will fall into place sooner or later. Before you know it, the term will be over and the hols will come. =)

I've always wanted to bring this up, found it weird to do so but I think I really have to say this. I'm being friendly for the sake of being a friend. Truly.

I'm going to KL this weekend. As it turned out, they managed to find a seat for me. Hope it will be a blast. In the meantime, I have to finish the assignments due in end March. Was supposed to do some of the work last weekend but I ended up burning the weekend in town with two of my colleagues. We were at a chalet which my staff rented for her post-ROM celebration and then when we were about to go home, it was already one plus. Mom called to tell me not to go home because it was too late (and yes, I still don't have the house keys). So we went down to Orchard Cineleisure to catch a movie. Decided to watch "Swing Girls" at 3.55 a.m. so we had about an hour to get some food to eat. Bought the food from Cheers and we sat on the sofas near the escalators on the fifth or sixth floors to chat over food and drinks. It seemed like a short time before we had to go into the theatre. The other two fell asleep during the movie.

After the movie, we went to the Coffee Club opposite to have drinks and cake. It was a beautiful morning. We sat there chatting, watching the sky turn from black to dark blue and then to a light blue. Birds were flying, the soft music was still being played and there was a cool breeze.

I felt like I was back to the days of being a student. Carefree days.

At around nine, we started to head home. I slept for five hours, woke up to do laundry and then behaved like a zombie for the rest of the day. I'm still rather tired and I look like a panda. Nevertheless, it was an enjoyable weekend and I am glad that I did not touch my work.

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It was a good day. I managed to finish quite a bit of work and I feel a sense of satisfaction. Although there are still some more things to be done by end of March, I think I will be able to finish them in time.

There's a presentation tomorrow. There's another next Tuesday. Hope everything goes well tomorrow. Before I know it, I'll be out for the weekend. And tomorrow's running day again. Yay.

The meeting tonight was all right. I think many familiar faces were gone but as the chinese saying goes, ??????????The new people have a lot more energy than the old birds. The youngest is only 19 years old. Wow. I'm already going on 24 this year. Can't believe it. Just a few years ago, I was 19.

For those who volunteer with SCS, please keep 14 May free and do support us! I'm the publicity i/c this time round. I need your support. Hahahaha.

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I brought a heavy bag of work back home but I think I can't do it tonight. So I'll lug it back to work tomorrow, which is stupid but I think I've been doing it quite often, so much so that it no longer bothers me. Well, it's not always that bad. Sometimes I do get the work done at home, especially when I'm feeling fresh and motivated or desperate to meet deadlines.

While walking to the train station with my colleague, she mentioned that she would be able to go to sleep only at around three plus in the morning because she has to finish working on some user acceptance testing material at home but she can only do it after her baby falls asleep. Poor thing.

Life's tough. Although we have a roof over our heads and food to fill our stomachs and enough money to get by, the pressure of leading such lives kills us slowly but definitely.

We may want life to be simple but most of the time, we're not living for our own sakes.

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This month I have to work hard at completing a few major projects (presentations etc.). Things to look forward to after this busy month of March are Ballet Under the Stars and Sound of Music. My colleagues and I took half a day off for BUTS so that we can prepare food for the picnic under the stars. So far I've been to the ballet performance twice. The first time with S and the second time with Couz. Now I'll be going with A and D.

Sound of Music will be fun too. I haven't watched anything at the Esplanade performance theatre yet. =)

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My travel plans to Australia have to be shelved. Half expected it but when reality sinks deeper, I feel quite unhappy about it, knowing I can't really do much about it. The period between April and May is now untouchable. Sigh.

CJWD asked if i would like to go to KL next Friday with XL and his friend. I don't mind but not sure if there are seats left and he didn't say anything about it so I guess it's off.

Time for a run on Friday to ease the joints and pump the heart.

So I spent today at home. Was supposed to go out but sis fell sick and I didn't feel like going out in the end. Ended up watching movie trailers online.

I should have watched "Hotel Rwanda" and "Finding Neverland". Not that I didn't want to watch then but it was bad timing etc. I want to watch "In good company" sometime soon. It looks like a feel-good movie which I think will lift my spirits up a lot in the next week.

Back to the grind tomorrow. I remember when I first started work, whenever I returned to work after the long weekend, I would have to first go to the toilet before I could really look at my mailbox. Because when I looked at the number of emails I got, I felt so nervous that I got butterflies in the stomach.

Nowadays, it's worse but I've got used to it somehow, just that it's harder to keep my temper in check.

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Will go to sleep earlier tonight to prepare myself for tomorrow. I have a feeling that tomorrow will be a hard, hard day. After that I still have to go down to Clementi to meet the rest on the programme.

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Oh, I mentioned watching a lot of trailers. So I watched Sin City's trailer and I thought that the instrumental soundtrack sounds good.

Here'sthe lyrical version.

Okay, rubbish for tonight's update but I think I really have nothing better to say. Good night.

Eating durian at Cavenagh Bridge

Currently listening to: Blower's Daughter~Damien Rice
Mood: Insane

After work today, we were supposed to head home. Then someone suddenly said that he wanted to eat durian and the three of us went in the direction towards Chinatown. Turned out that the durian stall was already closed and we walked down towards Boat Quay and then the same someone said we could go to Dhoby Ghaut to get the durians. By then it was around 8 plus and we hadn't had dinner yet (I was supposed to have dinner at home) but well, we went down to Carrefour at Dhoby Ghaut to get the durians. Finally decided to call home to say I wouldn't be going home for dinner and then we had KFC.

After dinner, we spent some time wandering around the place to see where we could eat the durians without making others suffer. Finally we decided to go to Cavenagh bridge and there we were, seated at the bridge and enjoying the breeze and durians.

It was fun and we decided to go running tomorrow after work. Going to start exercising again. Yay! Yay! Yay!

By the way, chicken, coke and durian when mixed together is a foul combination.

After running tomorrow with the colleagues, I'll be meeting the mentors for dinner. J is bringing the little ones tomorrow for SF. Little dwarf hamsters. Wowowowowow! It will be fun. =)

Time after time

Currently listening to: Time after time ~ Eva Cassidy

So I found another Eva Cassidy song that I love. However, it sounds hauntingly sad. I can shed tears from listening to it.

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I think I'm reaching breakpoint. I snap at people at work. I don't think I want to talk about work further so I'll stop here.

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For a moment, I thought this was for real. Then I saw Joel and Clementine's photos in there and I realised that it is from "Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind". So it isn't real.

Some people and some memories; it doesn't mean that I stop talking about them that they are no longer existent. I just pretend that they are no longer in this world because they're no longer in my life. Life goes on. I continue leading my life, you continue leading yours. Only that we wouldn't allow our paths to cross again.

I threw away a lot of things this new year but I couldn't throw away what I have of you. I'm still searching for that bookmark. In the past, when I was in a self-torturing mood, I look through these physical memories. These days, I never take them out anymore. Maybe I finally realised I was being stupid. You moved on. What about me? I think it's impossible for me to forget you. I tried but I guess my memories of you are always camouflaged somewhere in my mind just waiting to pounce on me when I least expect it.

I no longer bear any hope of us being friends like we were years ago. I don't even want to meet you again because I know I wouldn't be able to take it. But I guess I will still miss you like I do at this moment. Time after time.

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Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Turning in circles confusion
Is nothing new
Flashback to warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories,
Time after...

Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you have said
And you say go slow
I've fallen behind
The second hand unwinds

Chorus:
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time

After your picture fades and darkness has
Turned to grey
Watching through windows I�m wondering
If you�re OK
And you say go slow
I've fallen behind
The drum beats out of time

Chorus:
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time

mmm�time after time
Oooh�time after time
Time after time

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Maybe I'll turn this entry private tomorrow. Mood too morose now. (Maybe I'll regret posting this. bleah.)...