It's like a dream, It's like a rainbow, it's like the rain..

Currently listening to: Never saw blue like that~Shawn Colvin

Went to a wedding dinner tonight at Marriot. The usual reception, sitting in and waiting for those fashionably late people to arrive, watching of montage, pouring of champagne, yamseng, gorging on food and then going home after the handshakes at the door.

Not that I don't like wedding dinners. They are usually lovely and they always touch me because of the joyous atmosphere and the happiness the newlyweds and their families display. Especially tonight when it's my childhood friend who's moving on to the next stage in her life.

Congratulations, F. =)

Rekindling old ties

I should be sleeping now but I really don't feel like going to sleep. I wish the weekend will stop at this moment and that time stops ticking away, just for a day or so. I need the time to think and rethink.

Well, time will never stop for anyone. So I'll stop for time. Take a day off, maybe two. I'll have to see what my schedule's like this week.

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Met an old friend on Saturday night. I couldn't recall when we last met. Was it two years ago when we met during Chinese New Year? I still can't remember. Anyway, it felt good touching base. While walking back home together after midnight, I was tired and I was wishing that the weather was cooler. All these running through my head while I wondered what he was thinking about and hoped we weren't running out of conversation. Then I remembered that we never had to worry about that. I think he was the only person other than WW whom I talked to on the phone for hours.

So we parted ways. When is the next time we would meet again? Even though you live only a short distance away.

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I must try to gain more weight. The recent bout of illness has made me thinner than ever.

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Mom's old friend from Quebec came to visit. After 10+ years. He has got married and two beautiful children by the name of Marissa and Christopher. They are currently aged 10 and 8. Friendly couple and adorable children. The next time I see them again, perhaps they would be my age.

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Talked to my secondary school penpal tonight on msn. Glad to hear that he's getting on fine.

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The course I attended on Monday and Tuesday recharged me. I'll talk more about it if I feel like it.

After work today, M said "Want to bet?".

I said, "Really want to bet?".

She then said, "Yes, why not I bet on Wolfgang and you bet on Howard?".

I thought for a while and said, "Nah, I have a feeling Howard isn't going to win."

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So tonight's finale for E.F.A.G 2 wasn't that much of a shocker. Now that I think about it, the words DK said didn't really register in my head (other than the sentence about choosing to leave a fairytale).It was the way Howard looked and how he tried to say something. I think he must have been trying really hard not to show his sadness but it came through quite clearly. Like the more you try to conceal how you feel, the more others can see that something's wrong.

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I've been thinking about him again. During the most mundane moments like when I was walking to the bus stop after work yesterday or when I was getting ready for bed the other night.

While watching the finale, I was subconsciously reminded of how I too had done something similar. Letting someone go and wanting to be happy for him even though you really, really like the person and it breaks your heart but you can only smile. Because you don't want him to know how you really feel inside.

Tears rolled down my cheeks just now during the show. I didn't expect to cry while watching it but I'm fine now. Silly me.