After work today, M said "Want to bet?".

I said, "Really want to bet?".

She then said, "Yes, why not I bet on Wolfgang and you bet on Howard?".

I thought for a while and said, "Nah, I have a feeling Howard isn't going to win."

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So tonight's finale for E.F.A.G 2 wasn't that much of a shocker. Now that I think about it, the words DK said didn't really register in my head (other than the sentence about choosing to leave a fairytale).It was the way Howard looked and how he tried to say something. I think he must have been trying really hard not to show his sadness but it came through quite clearly. Like the more you try to conceal how you feel, the more others can see that something's wrong.

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I've been thinking about him again. During the most mundane moments like when I was walking to the bus stop after work yesterday or when I was getting ready for bed the other night.

While watching the finale, I was subconsciously reminded of how I too had done something similar. Letting someone go and wanting to be happy for him even though you really, really like the person and it breaks your heart but you can only smile. Because you don't want him to know how you really feel inside.

Tears rolled down my cheeks just now during the show. I didn't expect to cry while watching it but I'm fine now. Silly me.