It's all about drama.

Am sleeping in ten minutes time.

The CNY break was a good break. I ate a lot, slept well, received and sent a lot of SMSes, watched a lot of tv and had time to practise. Didn't meet up with the relatives this year because all of us didn't want to go out for the annual dinner thingy we have every year since my primary school CNYs. This year, I only visited my nanny's place. In the end, I didn't visit xy's place but managed to meet up with the rest at Chjimes at night.

Well, the break wasn't just about all these things. I had time to relax and think properly. I didn't worry that much about work (although I worried more today and at this minute, I'm feeling a bit worried about tomorrow) but well, tomorrow's already Thursday. The weekend will come soon and it's time again for some tv.

Oh, and I actually watched the entire "Full House" drama. It made me cry and laugh at the same time. Think I'm going blind watching it the whole day. I actually wanted to stop halfway but I didn't want to stop watching when I was at the sad portions because it made me very, very sad (I cried! Can you believe it? I haven't cried in a long, long time when watching tv/movies) and I didn't want to go to work feeling sad so I persisted and watched till the very end. Stupidly, I still feel not-so-good.

Random things that came to my mind

1. If I could concentrate what remains of you in my mind and heart onto a strand of hair or a part of my fingernail, I can then throw it away.
2. I realise I'm searching for a perfect type of love which will never come by. It only exists in drama with happy endings.
3. I should start picking up my Japanese books again and attempt JLPT this year.
4. I will attempt to keep my room as clean as its current state for as long as I can manage.
5. I have to find a new job. Just so sick of all that shit. But first, I have to write good cover letters and resumes to secure interviews. I need to get back that drive I once had. I think the reason why I'm hating work nowadays is that I'm no longer feeling that I'm learning and I'm only dealing with shit day in, day out.
6. Why does Full House remind me of you?
7. I have a feeling that tomorrow's going to be a shitty day. I know I should stop it (the shit and thinking that it's surely a shitty day) but the only thing I can do is to sleep it off and wake up tomorrow to psyche myself.
8. There's this side of my home that's got a nice view of the sky and all. I think I'd love to sit there at night to chat with friends while the wind blows.
9. I love my nanny, whom I call Mother. She's 70+ years old.
I think she's disappointed that I hardly visit. The past few times I visited, she would tell me to go and stay at her place when I'm free. When I visited her a few days ago, when I was wearing my shoes to leave, she only said, "Do call when you're free. Mother is old already...". One of those moments which I'll always remember.
10. I'll get a tv to put in my room so I can watch more tv.