Listening to: Here with me-Michelle Branch

When I got into the train today, there was this guy who was talking to his female friend. He spoke quite loudly and I could tell that she was rather amused by whatever he talked about. (I was very amused too). Don't know why but the train was strange today. Thought it was going to stop very soon due to some technical fault but it just kept moving at a speed I had never thought it was capable of. Tut tut tut tut. Mass Rapid Transit my foot.

Of course, the guy kept grumbling in a comical way and finally blurted out, "How come it's moving so slow? I can even walk faster than the train!" and immediately, some school girls at the next door burst out in laughter.

I was trying very hard to suppress a laugh too. The train soon resumed its usual speed and I smiled all the way till I reached my stop.

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I didn't realise how long I haven't been writing in here. It's been more than a week. Everyday as I set out to go for work, I look at my surroundings and try to think of things I would want to note down. Everytime I thought of something, I would take out my handphone, compose a message and save it in my outbox before I forgot what i wanted to write. For a week, I hadn't been doing that. Till today. For the whole of last week till today, from the time I woke up till I got to my workplace, I was just very weary. Too tired to look around and look out for stimuli for my imagination. I felt dead physically and mentally.

I made a couple of mistakes last week and I think I paid dearly for them. Fortunately, things are kept in check and for now, I think I'm still okay. Bubbly messaged me and said she didn't do well for her interview today. I composed a message very fast. I said, "Things will only get better....."

For a few seconds after I sent that message, I was appalled at how easily I could say something that I am not yet convinced myself. Just a careless phrase I tossed out of my mind. I thought through it repeatedly and I slowly realised that maybe it wasn't just a carelessly tossed-out phrase. Perhaps I indeed believed in what I said.