When the laughter fades away.

These days, I behave like a clown in the office. I don't mind behaving stupidly in order to hear laughter. You know how hard it is to maintain a sense of sanity in the midst of all the craziness? I guess all of us have our own ways of coping. What's yours?

There were a couple of times when I had laughed so much that I suddenly felt that I could actually start crying as hard as I had been laughing. Something like absolute euphoria suddenly replaced by ultimate despair. I convinced myself that, perhaps, I wasn't feeling too good those days.

Tonight it happened again. We were laughing so hard then I had that feeling creep up on me and I realised that maybe I was wrong. I had been trying so hard to laugh my stress and sense of emptiness away only to find that maybe laughter isn't the best medicine.

It's not a good night. May it be a better day tomorrow.