This week's courses are all compulsory. There was course A on Monday and Course B on Monday and Tuesday. Course C is on Friday.

Can't elaborate on the content of A. It was really boring and I thought I was the only one from my workplace to attend the course on Monday. Turned out that I saw a familiar face during tea time. Some colleague from another dept who takes the same bus and mrt every now and then but whom I never spoke to. Decided to say hi and by the end of the day, I got to know two colleagues better. Yay.

As for B, I was really disappointed to miss it on Monday. Enjoyed it tremendously. First thing on Tuesday morning was to watch this really colourful video by Dewitt Jones. It was very inspirational and there was so much beauty in his pictures. He basically talked about unleashing one's creativity and its link to one's passion. That creativity wasn't a quality of a selected few but rather, it is something which can be unleashed in everyone if only the individual wants to. It was also a matter of honing one's technique, following one's intuition and placing oneself in places of potential. To not stop at the first right answer but to move on to find more right answers as there is not only one right answer.

Learned quite a lot of things from the course and hey, I got to play "Check In" too! SF/PL, I thought it was very useful in bonding a group. I believe our words came from the heart and we were no longer superiors vs subordinates, senior vs junior. We were peers.

The last activity we had was sharing our dreams. I really loved the way people talked about their dreams. There's this thing in their eyes, their body language. I felt really touched.

I'll share what I learned with you the next time we meet up.


Second good thing which happened this week was getting the ao dai for my DnD. I'm grateful to a few people for helping me; II for helping me spot the ao dai and actually collecting and passing it to me, Nut for initiating contact with the seller and making the transaction happen earlier than expected, MS for walking around with me to find something suitable when we went out for dinner the other day and even telling me where he saw something suitable.

Thanks. =)

Third good thing that happened. Before sunset is finally on screen!!! I'm going to watch it most probably next week. Yay.

Fourth good thing is that tomorrow, I'm closing a project which I've been doing for a few months! I'm so glad, so glad. Did the briefings today and it'll be up on the web tomorrow. Yay.

Crazy thing I did this week was to sign up for hip-hop classes which start in November. Not sure if I got a place but anyway, I think it's going to be fun. I asked the other colleagues but no one seems to be interested. Mr TMD says he's too old to breakdance (but hip hop isn't only about breakdancing?). He just wants to watch and (most probably laugh I know) when I do sign up. Rolls my eyes.

I'm so looking forward to Christmas. Even though I know this year's Christmas is not going to be any different from past years. Wonder if Corrinne May will hold a concert this year again? When is she releasing her 2nd album?

Betrayal

Just found out something really shocking. I didn't get the job I applied for in the past because my superior said rubbish to human resource. I don't know what she said exactly and why but I suspect it was the period when the bitch spoke bad about me behind my back. Literally. In retrospect, I no longer feel guility for treating the bitch as transparent when I walked past her recently. I should have shot her a dirty look.

Even though I told myself I was okay about working somewhere else, I felt disappointed. I gave three years of my life to that place. Three years amounted to nothing but betrayal at the end. If you remember, I was waiting and waiting for so long after the interview that I gave up, thinking that it was my poor showing at the interview. Do you know how low my confidence level dropped then? Just a few careless words thrown away cost me a career there.

Was it jealousy? I was only an undergraduate, what was the big deal? Were they scared that I would be their superior someday? Fools. All of them fools.

I was too naive. I gave my best and I got stabbed in the back.

It's a big joke that I only got to know this one year down the road.

-end of rant-

It's raining outside.

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Have to go back to work tomorrow. I didn't expect it. Don't feel like going back as this week has been a really long and tiring one but I wasn't hard-hearted enough to say no. Buddy has some unresolvable problem at home and asked me to take her place tomorrow since the rest are either on long leave or on medical leave. So I notified PL and SF that I can't make it for the camp recce tomorrow. Sorry folks.

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Buddy told me from day one that she wasn't happy. Although she never explicitly told me what happened, I managed to guess somehow. A few weeks back when we went out for dinner, she told me what she planned to do. She wanted to play showhand. I just hope she plays her cards right.

Senior told me Buddy loves her husband more than her husband loves her. That's why she's suffering so much. Found out something rather scandalous from Senior but I shan't write it down here.

I just wish that Buddy can be happier and that her children will spend more time with her. However, I know it's hard. Her children are about my age and at our age, I guess we don't really spend as much time with our parents as in the past.

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Yesterday was crazy. These two weeks are crazy. I'm going crazy. Yesterday during lunch, I knocked my cup of green tea while receiving a plate of hor-fun from my colleague. My skirt got soaked and I was wet from my thighs till my feet. Sat there motionless for a few seconds and I tried to put down the plate of hor-fun. Spilled the gravy and there was a flurry of activity around me. Tissues handed to me from different directions, shocked voices telling me the gravy was dripping.

I also accidentally knocked a little girl's head while walking (I'm so sorry..) and was really glad when we got back to the office.

Fortunately, my skirt dried by the time I went for the presentation. The presentation went well. Yay! Was feeling super happy and brought back the drinks to the office. I became the tealady for the evening. Gobbled dinner in 5 minutes and rushed off to knitting class.

During the class, I was trying very hard to stop my hands from shaking. Carried too many drinks earlier. Ended up being too embarrassed to ask the teacher when I had doubts. Was so glad when they finally stopped shaking.

Feeling like a kid......it's no sin.

Listening to: You were meant for me~ Jewel

It isn't a good day. You know, one of those days which feels like it is just ordinary and doesn't matter. One of those days which you won't remember even if you tried. (Well, unless I read this entry next time).

It's almost a year since I started working at this place I'm working. Think it's time to give it a name. I shall call it Algaepond. Yes, it's almost a year since I started working at Algaepond. I find myself unable to escape from the colour green.

So far I find the colleagues fine, the work sucky at times and I find myself growing old. Even though I'm one of the youngest in my workplace and act my age or younger most of the time. It's like I feel guilt being my childlike self and consciously try to turn myself into a prim and proper working adult. Besides, having that childlike close to childish touch doesn't exactly make people believe you are capable of handling responsibilities. So I keep on a poker face at work and only turn into some "thing" else at lunch or during some moments when bosses' heads are turned.

Ok, I am fine feeling the way I feel right now but seriously I feel quite scared that I will still feel and act like some stupid kid 50 years down the road. I wonder how people can age and act their age (without experiencing major ups and downs). I don't think I can. At most I can pretend.