The past few weeks have been rather eventful. First was the birthday celebration with PL, TG and PR. That night, we went to the charity performance at chinatown before we hailed a cab to go to Orchard Road to have dinner at Marche. The rest of the night was spent walking from Orchard Road to Cavenagh Bridge where we sat down to talk. While on the bridge, we saw a man fishing crabs from the Singapore river. He managed to fish a whole lot of crabs!

PL got me a pendant with my chinese name plus happiness engraved on it. I keep it in my wallet when I don't wear it.

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I like all the presents I received this year. The perfume, the bouquet, PL's bag of gifts, PR's gingerbread man which I haven't eaten, the natural source stuff, etc.

Today I received another present. Will talk about it later. =) Thanks Dan!

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It made me think of what are some of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me.


I can't remember.

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Happy birthday to me.

Although they lasted only a while, they were lovely. Memories of my 21st birthday.

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Here's wishing me a happy 23rd birthday in a few hours' time.

I want to be happy.

Even though I had only a couple of hours sleep each night during the camp, I was feeling rejuvenated. Like what I was telling Kiddy today, it doesn't really matter how many days of leave we take but rather, the quality of the time we spend outside work. We were just talking at her workstation when she suddenly had tears form in her eyes and she started tearing. Weariness. Disappointment. Negativity. Sometimes I wish I had the power to make people happy. Solve their problems. Wash away all the unhappiness.

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The camp made me think quite a lot. I was thinking about my lack of commitment towards the preparation of the activity, how work was consuming me, how I have drifted apart from my friends, what meaning do I find in work and life outside work. I was tired and frustrated. I didn't feel like trying. I just wanted to stop moving. I wanted things to change for me, rather than having to change things.

Not that the camp changed everything but it did place a few more things back into perspective. So I'm glad that I did go for the camp.

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Met MS for dinner tonight and pigged out. Someone's got attached recently. =) Amidst the emotional tangles here and there, I really hope that things turn out fine for the people involved.

DnD 2004

It was fun! =) Ate a lot, took a lot of pictures, danced and then danced somemore at Dbl O (yes, we went there wearing what we wore) and went back to the hotel in the morning. Looked at the night sky. Slept. Woke up. Had breakfast. Went to get our pics and went home.

It was just so tiring last week but it was all worth it.

Specially for you, my friend.

I just read something you wrote. We never talked much about what happened in the past. I didn't ask and didn't think I should ask. (Although I did want to ask sometimes.)

Tonight, I read your story. Even though you said you weren't writing it because you were sad, the words made me think and feel otherwise.

I once asked someone if he ever loved me. That was a few years after we lost contact and became friends again. I regretted asking that question. He didn't answer the question and I did not get to see his facial expression. I never knew the answer. But we are still good friends today. I'm happy.

I guess the important part of asking is not the answer, but rather the motivation behind it. What is the intention?

So, what is yours?

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Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

-Dr. Seuss

I'm weary. Wasn't in the best of moods at work today and I got a little irritated when I got teased numerous times for the same thing.

Need a break. Last night, I was telling mom about how good it is to be a student. I know it's the usual contradiction that when you study, you hate it and you want to work and vice versa. But at least when I was studying, I had holidays. Now, I have to wait and see. And I think I've been waiting and seeing for most of the year now.

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Saw a little girl last Sunday on the bus home. She was walking past me with her shoes clicking away. When I looked at her face, she smiled playfully. I could almost see "I love my new shoes!" written on her face. =)

I smiled back and continued smiling for a couple of minutes.

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Fusag (from California),Z (an old schoolmate) and C (from Vancouver). I've been talking to three newly befriended people other than the usual suspects.

I still like the feeling of forming new friendships online, getting to know more about a person and sharing daily anecdotes. But I realised it's different somehow. Less enthusiasm. Fewer words.

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I miss the conversations we had. Maybe that's why I dreamed of you those nights. Or maybe I do miss you after all?
But I know I'll never want to try to talk to you again.

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One of those crazy nights. I will feel better when I wake up. Will forget.