Ten things about me.

Meme from a friend's blog.

1. List ten things you want to say to people but know you never will
2. Don't say who they are.

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1. Maybe it would have been different if we had met later in life. Whenever I think of you, I cringe at the memories of those stupid things I had said and hope you have forgotten them.

2. I'm afraid I'd be the last person to know about major events in your life.

3. I get irritated by the things you say, especially the part on staying single. As much as I hate to admit it, I am afraid of growing old and dying alone (picture old woman dying in a HDB flat without anyone knowing until the stench goes out). So as the years pass and as I grow older, I dread more and more that day that I would lose you because you have been the only one who has been truly there for me.

4. I think you were trying to be funny and friendly by all that incessant teasing. In turn, I pretend to be bothered and say stupid things back because I know it amuses you. After all, it's friendly and harmless teasing. These days, I say sarcastic things back because it's no longer funny to me. Am sorry for that but I can't help it. Why do you spend so much energy testing me? I'm tired.

5. What I wanted to say to you (but ended up not saying) is that I wish you could be open with me on that matter. Without being open, we could never be closer friends. Or am I asking too much from you?

6. I wish I had stayed longer that night. But would it have made a difference?

7. I think I don't know you after all. Neither do you know me.

8. I guess you know by now that I don't want to buy it from you. Even so, I want to be friends like we used to. But it feels weird because I feel you've got agenda. You've changed. That's why I never reply you anymore.

9. - (can't think of any now).